do you think some people are just more tapped into the flow of say, creative energy but also they get addicted or taken over and sometimes take too much and while they might produce great things, they also probably deny some people of the expressive release that they need?
or maybe life… value. i guess the alternative is i don’t know, some people are born with it?
last post: quote
current post: my mom and i watched an alfred hitchcock film and talked about the history of bras and um, pirates.
sometimes i think that i should start reading the news, then i go, yeah, current events: important, sure. but i know that stuff will bring me down, but i feel like i should show a little care and interest in it anyway.
we also talked about cats.
the individual has the sole responsibility for giving one’s own life meaning and with living life passionately and sincerely, in spite of many obstacles and distractions including despair, angst, absurdity, choice, boredom, and death.
after accepting months of my coffee
and words
and cigarettes
and respect for your opinions
i even asked for them sometimes
and i asked what you were doing in your life
and you were intimidating but if i don’t matter
to you
this liberates me
but it also puts me in danger
of course my time is worthless to you
if i deleted you i would miss you
and i wouldn’t know what to do with myself
even though i know the answer is “anything but you”
dear rachel
we have disagreements on this matter
i put everything on it!
i put mustard and cheese
and lettuce and ketchup
i put pico de guilo
and a silent thank you to my grandfather,
to livestock
and dogs
i couldn’t eat it
it was too gritty
